It's been one month since i got back from the Philippines. I had a fab time and seeing all my family and friends again after almost 10 years was so nice. Although i had a blast it was also very emotional especially when i had to say my goodbyes because if my surgery don't work then it could be the last time i will see them, therefore i am so thankful to Prof Heaton for allowing me to go as it really means a lot to me to see my family for the last time. However, i am still trying to stay positive and pray that everything will go smooth this time round, but based on my history there are no gaurantees and with this being my last chance of having a 'normal' life i have no choice but to go ahead with it.
After four days of being back i ended up as an inpatient for suspected malaria but thankfully it wasn't and turned out to be just a UTI. I was throuwing up and constantly feeling naseuas therefore my apetite was very poor as i could not tolerate anything without feeling sick. However fortunately for me it wasn't a long stay and i manage to go back to work the following week.
As for my upcoming surgery the waiting list for electives is quite long, therefore it could still be a while yet. Well there goes my plans of going back to uni after the summer gone as there no chance i will be fit enough by then if i haven't gone for surgery yet. I can't believe it has taken this long. I feel like i have been waiting for ages as plans have been going on for over 2 years now which is making me more and more frustrated as i feel like my life is on constant pause until after this surgery and dealing with the pain is becoming increasingly difficult and starting to affect my life in such a significant way in terms of my work and my social life which again has become non-existent. However, i am fortunate to have such a supportive manager and colleagues which does help in such a big way.
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