Sunday 3 March 2013

2013 so far...

We are already into the third month of the year and already it's been a roller coaster but thankfully not in terms of hospital visits as I haven't been an in-patient so far but have had some close calls. The roller coaster is in terms of emotions. I've been keeping up with my therapy which has had a positive effect as my panic attacks have greatly reduced but I'm still battling with certain demons.

The year started off great. I was in a positive mindset, motivated and energetic. I thought I was on a roll and my self-esteem was slowly increasing. However, that slowly started to unwind and am finding myself back in the middle of a downwards spiral yet again. I've figured out to get back on track I need to make some harsh decisions about certain people in my life as removing negativity may help me be more stronger and positive. I'm not used to being harsh but I realise I need to start thinking of myself for a change.

Some positives of the year so far is that I finally got motivated enough to knuckle down and get my first assignment done and passed, now to tackle the next two. Also I've made another great liver friend who in my eyes is amazing, strong willed and gorgeous. She has been through a lot in the past year and is still battling with problems that come with liver disease but she still manages to smile and be there for others. Sydney, love you girl! I love all my liver peeps, they are always there for me and never judge me. Although I have a lot of other friends they don't seem to get me and my life the way my liver peeps do so I feel so lucky to have them. I always said that the greatest thing to come out of having liver disease is the amazing people I get to meet along my journey. They are gifts from God.