Today i had an important meeting with the man himself, Prof Heaton. He finally gave me some reassurance and sees things from my perspective and can tell how important this surgery means to me and for once i was not compared against Aneisha as he realises that i am an individual and deserves the same chances as everyone else.
I was so anxious going into the appointment as i had a lot of questions in my head that i need to be answered but as usual, typical me when i get there i am lost for words and go totally go blank. However, he still managed to answer most of them as he explained what the surgery entails and his views and opnions on what i should do. I think he could see through me and feel how hungry i am for life and that i deserve some sort of normality and pain free life. He also thinks that i would benefit a lot from the surgery if all goes to plan but have to also be prepared for the worstt as it comes with very high risks.
His plan for now is that he wants me to have a barrium swallow procedure to check for any obstructions in my bowels. When he told me that i was more concerened about having that procedure more that the surgery itself because out of all the procedures one can have that is my worst nightmare, last time it took them 2 days to actually get gastro graffin down me. I guess i just have to suck it up and do it somehow without passing out.
Once he has the results from the procedure i need to go back to see him at clinic where we will discuss the surgery in more detail and put a date aside for when he and Parthi can both do the surgery.
The best thing that came out of today was knowing that Prof was on my side and is giving me that chance. I have every faith that i am under the best care.
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