Life or Death?

If one could choose to live or die how would one decide? What questions would you ask yourself? What's my life worth? Who will miss me? Whats will my quality of life going to be like? I often ask myself these questions and my answers are always the same. I have achieved nothing, i have no assets, no family or career so my life is worth very little. A few people may miss me but time is a healer when grief strikes and life goes on for those i leave behind. I know that i will never live a long life and if the time i got left will be full of suffering why decide to live? I know that there are millions of people out there more worst of than me but for me i've come to the end of my tether and cannot carry on any longer. My liver disease i can deal with but everything else i feel like i can no longer cope with. The stress, the emotional aches and pains, people not accepting me for what i have become after my surgery. I try so hard to put a brave face and hide all the emotional scars but now i just want to let go as i feel like i'm just a joke to everyone or a person without any feelings. I try my best to please people but it seems like whatever i do, it's never right or enough for some people. Anyway enough of my ranting. I just felt i needed to vent and release a bit of frustration. I promise next post will be a happier one.