Wow, where has the time gone??? Almost half the year has gone by and i haven't updated this blog not even once this year although i always intend to but just never get around to doing it.
Well it's been another crazy year but the GOOD news is that i have been OUT of hospital since November last year...YAY!!! Although that is great news it doesn't mean my life has been easier because it hasn't. It has actually been quite a sad and emotionally challenging year so far. I lost a few friends due to liver disease earlier this year and this past month 5 of my family members sadly passed away, one of which was so tragic that i can't seem to come to terms with it.
The most hardest thing i have had to deal with this year is fighting against my depression. I have been having counselling sessions since i was discharged last November and i have a few ups and downs and have even come to breaking point so have been put on anti-depressants and recently have been referred to mental health to help control my moods. Also tackling relationships and friendships has proved to be such a challenge.
Healthwise i am doing brilliantly in terms of liver function tests, although the pain and my wound is still a big issue and the pain is still controlling my life and the bad news is that my hernia and wound reconstruction surgery has been postponed until next year as my consultant and surgeon feels that it is too soon to start going back inside and risking damaging something else in the process so they felt more healing time is needed. I can understand where they are coming from but it means yet another year of my life is put on hold and i cannot pursue my nurse training this year which i was really looking forward too as my first step into rebuilding my life again. Therefore in the meantime i have taken up extra voluntary and charity work which i am enjoying.
